i cant deny i dont want the beauty

.Wednesday, August 29, 2007 ' 2:25 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

What the heck do you want me to do? I don;t know what to do with you anymore. I really really want to give up on you.. but A tells me not to. I really don't know how. Can you tell me how ? I'm in the mist of breaking down soon. Why must you be so two-faced? I never do anything to you please. If you're really so calculative, i've got nothing to say to you. Instead of backstabbing, why not tell me straight in my face? I'm sure you know what you're doing but u don't realised that by doing this, you've hurt people and you don't know about it. I trusted you as a friend and now you're doing this to me. Is this fair? Am i getting retribution or something? I really can't believe that you are this kind of person.

Do you think you know everything everything of A & B? I can tell you that you don't. If you don't like me, just shut up and keep to yourself. You can vent on anything when you get home. Stop your freaking jealousy can. It's really irritating and annoying. I am not interested in your secrets or whosoever. Secrets are meant to be kept. Understand? If say out, it's not a secret anymore.

Each day passed and you get more annoying. Don't act as if you so innocent, did nothing wrong and act normal in front of me. Don't take it as a fool please. I'm not that stupid. You don't need to lie that you try to do something when you did not. Nobody will gonna believe. It's even more stupid to lie to get attention. It's impossible please. Everyone has their own friends, and not only you as a friend. Getting jealous is a very stupid thing. Your attitude not only affect me but A and B as well? I bet you doesn't know. Everyone just qian jiu you whenever your face is black. I've been tolerating you for so long. Same goes to B. My patience is limited i tell you. If i really get fed up, you die i tell you. I can shout until you cry like nobody business. Don't go too overboard i tell you.

That night you suddenly out of the blue text me at night asking for forgiveness. I don't know why you suddenly do that. Is it you saw that A and B siding me already and you don't want to lose them? I don't know whether your sorry is really sorry kind. I really don't know. As a child of God, we should learn to forgive and forget. Yes i will forgive and forget. But not now. You stabbed me so many times and suddenly ask me to forgive you? Did you ever think that what you did to me? You really think that i don't know what you've done is it. Go reflect yourself, why i'm acting this way then. I've nothing more to say to you. You made me struggling with life and friendships. Whatever move or action i take, i must consider your feeling. When i consider your feeling, i can't take any action. I'm really at the wits already...

WHAT TO DO..............

.Sunday, August 26, 2007 ' 12:23 AM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Today actually is not a good day for me i guess. So so only. Have a pool of water today. Sighs. Today's pool was worst than yesterday... Ohwells. )):

Yes. Finally. Keely is the female champion ! Wheeee~ But sad that she's not overall champion. No offence to those who like zhengning. I've always think that keely will be the female champion as her singing is much much more better than zanny. No offence yeah. Keely rocks!!! Muahhahah.

Gonna sleep soon. Tml gotta wake up early. Haha. Going jogging with melmummy in the morning at ecp. HEEE. ((:
Waiting xjun jiejie to come back from mia. =p

.Friday, August 24, 2007 ' 11:04 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Sighs. Why must things turned out to be like that ? If that is what you want, so be it then.
Lessons today were okay. Thanks to cindy, who kept me laughing like a mad person these few days during lessons. Thanks gal !

Had cell yesterday.. Quite okay. At least it let me remember of that during cell time. Kate came yesterday ! Hahaha. Audris had to leave right after word, so yepp. Played saboteur after that. Lol ! Win twice ! MUAHAHHAHAHA (((: Melmummy quite good at it ! Lol !

All thanks to you today. It really change my mood to become worst. Thanks char for lending listening ear. Love you gal ! ((: Still must thank melmummy and xjun jiejie ((:

.Wednesday, August 22, 2007 ' 11:56 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Haven't been posting. This will be a short post before i sleep.
Things rather so so in school. Some are not very good. At home too. Oh wells. Sighs. But God is in control of everything. So i'll just have to pray hard for it.

The tickets for the chinese musical play has been sold out all !!!! Sighs. Nvm then.. I know God wants me to study hard. So i can glorify Him in my results. ((:

Was pissed off by their attitude just now. and yepps. Sighs.

Audition is nearing and we haven yet to get everything ready. Ohwells. Pray to God. ((:

.Sunday, August 19, 2007 ' 12:40 AM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Did not post for a few days already. Got miss me people ? LOL. kidding =x
Pass few days the same lah. Lessons were boring as usual. Had English O level oral on wednesday.. Still quite okay bahhs. It's on environmental issue and climate. My leg kept shaking, don't know why. Haha. After that walked to the bus stop with teeli, holding guigui ! Hehs. SH gave it to me cuz she lazy keep. Right SH. But i think guigui miss u and u miss guigui larh ! Hehhhs.

Thurs had cellgroup after school at 430pm. Went home to change first. Teeli smsed me that she can go for cell! Hooray!! Hees. Went to parkway to buy bubble tea and old chang kee as teeli got 2 bucks off voucher for ock. Hahah. Yum yum ! Sotong head. MUahhahas. Played saboteur after that. Damn funny and irritating at times lah. LOL. Teeli and mel know why. Hahahaha. Its so arghhz. Hehh.

Friday not so bad. Went to meet ZY Jie for lunch. Went to Aston for lunch. Not bad. Ordered black pepper chicken. The black pepper was a bit too "hot". Making my throat a bit dry luhhs. But yeah. Overall it's a nice catch up with ZY. ((; Went to 7 11 opp Aston to buy the CSS special edition. Went to walk around parkway a while and sat at the seats provided near the singtel shop. Went home after that. ((:

Today had math mock paper. Me and jiaqi were late. On the way met lyn and then SH near the school gate. The paper was okay but i had a hard time figuring out how to do and have a few careless mistakes. Thanks JQ for telling me! Hees. ((: Was raining super heavy. Discussed about class performance for teacher's day audition. The boys were quite irritating. Ohwells. The rain got smaller. Lyn, Phie, JQ and me walked in the rain... I had my file over my head, so yeah. My hair was not wet. Went home.. Use lappy a while before tuition. After that went out to have dinner at bugis.

Went to marina sq to have birthday ice cream. LOL ! So funny lah. Once we sat down, we keep taking photos. Once the ice creams were served, we attacked the ice creams like we never see/ate it before. Hahha. Walked to RC to take mrt to RP. Went up to mum's office to watch the fireworks.

According to mum, today's fireworks not really nice. It was so smoky !!! My mum said yesterday's was better. Got heart shape and stuff. Today's have flower ! Hehhe. But it was really really smoky !!!

Ohwells. KK. Gotta go off already. Take care peepos. ((: JIAYOU FOR N AND O LEVEL TO THOSE WHO ARE TAKING IT ! JIAYOU JIAYOU !!! ((:

.Tuesday, August 14, 2007 ' 4:40 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Get back O level Chinese result yesterday. I'm not gonna say anything about it but thank God for that result.
Yesterday after school went for CIP. We went Muds and Mittens pte ltd. DOGGIES!!!! Heh. Some of the dogs and cats are rather pathetic. Abandoned my their owners. One of the cats is blind! Pity them. The dogs are rather cute. Heh.

Today... Not much thing happened. Played netball as usual. Math was doing some questions from paper 2. I keep falling asleep today. Tired. ZzzzZzz monster.. Had physics stars for about an hour or so. Go through worksheet. Not that bad lah. But i still miss Ms Tan's teaching and Ms Tan. ((: Coughing the whole day today. Having sore throat already. Sianns..

Lalalalaa~ Maybe i'm going to sleep somemore le. HEEE. Tml O level English Oral~~~ AHHHHHH~

.Sunday, August 12, 2007 ' 4:13 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

It's such a super duper hot sunday. How i wish i will be at church today with air con and listening to God's word. Sigh. Woke up super duper early today. Don't know why. Seems like time is passing slowly today as i read my geog notes.
But somehow i always stray away while reading the notes, like using the com (like now ?!), rest my eyes and slp for like 5-10minutes before get caught by my mum and laze around playing with hp.

HAIIZ. God, tell me why it is like this !!

.Friday, August 10, 2007 ' 4:29 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Today is a super super tired day. I don't know why. Slept till nearing 12pm today with some awake moments in between. Laze around on the bed and on the phone with some people till 1pm. Slacked around watching tv and eating bread.

Yesterday was a great fun. Met sarah and cindy for simpsons movie at marina at 245pm. The show was alright only although some parts were really funny. Hees. ((: Walked around the shops after that. Cam whore a bit at the staircase before i leave and take mrt down to The Central to meet xjun jiejie and liyun jiejie for dinner ((:

Dinner was alright. Had korean cuisine at the foodcourt. Shared with xjun jiejie. Hahha. Had a nice chatting with them during dinner. ((: Took some photos. We walked to raffles place to watch fireworks. There were loads and loads of people. Somehow, we walked to my mum's office there and watched. Nice nice. ((: After that slacked at the open space where we can sit to wait for people to go. Walked down to raffles mrt and there were so many people still. But no choice. Walked and waited for mrt to come. Alighted at bugis, as there were super loads of people who came into the mrt at city hall. Almost became like sardines. Hahha. Liyun jiejie went off first and xjun jiejie and me went to walk around bugis basement to buy drink and bread. I bought a small little purse there to keep my card and money. ((: Went home after that.

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me, liyun, xjun]]- spiritual cousins((:

taken at central mall foodcourt. my face like qian da lidat. LOL

taken on o8o8o7 @ Bugis TCC

.Thursday, August 09, 2007 ' 12:56 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Yesterday was half day at school. Played captain ball with sec 3&5. According to lyn, we won! Hahha. After that went up to the hall for concert. Went to teeli's house to slack before meeting melmummy and audris jiejie at bugis.

Headed to bugis at around 12.40pm. Reached there at 1.05pm. Just nice. Hahha. Saw Fiona, Lestari and Yinghui ! Hehh. Proceeded to LJS for lunch. Yummy yummy ! Hahah. Waited for Audris jiejie to reach and we went to bugis village to search for teeli's bag. ((: Walked there for like 2 hours plus before we head to bugis tcc. Bought a bag for teeli and a bag for audris jiejie as belated presents. Heee. Slacked at TCC. Saw Aunt LQ w her bf! Hahha. They sat down and joined us. Chatted a lot. Left TCC at 6+. Brought audris jiejie to mos burger there to wait for her dad and then me and teeli left first, leaving melmummy and audris jiejie there. Waited for the bus freaking long.

Reached home, had dinner. Did a page of my chem notes. ((: After that went to tell mummy that i'm going out today. That's why my mood changes like the world falling down on me. I cried. Oh wells. Spoils my mood. Sms-ed melmummy. Sigh.

You don't want to believe me right, fine go ahead. I don't mind. I believe in myself and God believes me it's enough.

Gonna go bathe and get ready already. Tata peeps. ((:

.Sunday, August 05, 2007 ' 9:19 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Had Chemistry tuition at Melmummy's house with Cindy today. We both were late for 15 minutes. Sorry! Hahha. After that met my parents and sister at Raffles City Din Tai Fung Restaurant. I'm feeling guilty to ask my mum to go there. She spent 60 bucks there but all of them excluding me were not full. I was full. Don't know why. May be cause of the XIAO LONG BAO!! I LOVE XIAO LONG BAO !!!

Did a chapter and a half of chemistry notes. Hmmm. Being guai and time constrain to study !!! ARGHHHHH. Buck up Buck UP!!!

.Saturday, August 04, 2007 ' 4:23 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Mdm Lim treated the whole class for lunch yesterday ! It was good though. Her pocket sure have a big big whole now. Chicken Wings, Otah, Rojak, Desserts and all. THANKS !!!

Its a weekend already. I love weekends !! Hee. Looking forward to the next weekend cause its a LONG WEEKEND ! Wed will be having half day of school due to National Day celebration. THURS, FRI, SAT and SUN! WHEEEEEEEE~ Gonna study and see who wanna meet up for studying and stuff. ((:

Tralalalala~~~

.Wednesday, August 01, 2007 ' 9:27 PM Y

i can't deny that i don't love to be beauty?

Today's chinese paper 1 was totally crap. I don't understand the questions asking. Not really don't understand.. Just that i don't have the inspiration to write on everything. *Mind's blank*
Did not have literature class today as we have combined assembly. A bit boring lah. Heh. Had Math stars after that. I was stuck at the last question of paper 1. Think think and think. I gave up. I was pissed with myself, irritated by the question and that had put pressure on me which i almost resorted to crying. I had tears in my eyes but yeah... Slap cindy's paper.. I'm sorry gal. DUI BU QI. ((: After that, i had no mood to do anymore and i started packing up to get ready to leave for home. On the way out of the school gate, i walked "alone". As in SSC (short cut) were behind me and i'm walking in front. Almost cried. Ohwells. I leave it to God now. I don't want to think about anything now already. I'm tired.

Wanted to revise my chem. But can't get anything into my head. Disappointed with myself. These few days i really had no motivation to study. Sigh.....
Yesterday night was a saddy night. Right rah. ((:

I MISS MELMEL/XJUN/MIN